dunno y but my guts tells me dat history is gonna repeat itself again...i realli dont mean to doubt u but dat is wat my heart told me...aniwae im prepared if its realli gonna happen again...but jus wanna let u noe dat there wont be a 2nd chance after dat.dis time i realli mean it.

today jus suck big time...had a realli high fever since yesterday nite.can barely sleep cos im like having nightmare everi 1 hour...my temperature was like 38.9 degrees...damn...slept wif my mum...she was practically up all nite cos she said i was like mumbling tings to myself the whole nite...oh dear...im sooooo sorry mum.mum said she'll take me to the clinic in the morning but i jus cant wait till morning...in the end at around 6+ i told her dat i wanna go to the hospital...i cant take it animore...i can hardly walk so mum pushed me on the wheelchair...luckily i wasnt admitted in...i realli hate being admitted into the wards...it realli sucks....oh yeahh i didnt attend skool today cos of my condition...

didi called in the morning to check my condition but i was asleep wen he called...so mum told him dat i went to the hospital and all...i woke up at around 12 noon.den called him.he was asleep!!!meaning he didnt go to werk...OMG!realli feel like killing him...dgr2 i sick he also sick lah...idiot!hmmm...so yeahh...now im resting at home..my body is very weak...i can hardly walk to the toilet...haiz...

damn it sia...im sick...down wif fever,blocked nose and sore throat...OMG!cant aniting get any worst den dis...and the best ting is i have an accounting test to sit for...of all days in dis month why must it be 2day sia...i've taken 2 panadol extra about an hour ago hoping dat i'll recover by 2morrow morning at least...i cant absent myself 2morrow!school ends at 12 sia...early ryte...by hook or by crook i have to drag myself to school 2morrow...my body is realli realli aching ryte now...

i dunno wether im going out 2morrow cos he still havent called...i realli dunno how im gonna face him if im meeting him 2morrow...aniwae...i saw nizam at bdk jus now...and he put on weight...hahaha...but he's still short lah...he didnt see me though...but its ok i guess...

well i'm taking back all my werds on wat i've written in the previous entry...simply bcos i figured out wat a phucking bastard u are after all...my feelings was ryte after all...u ARE cheating on me...and wat makes it WORST is dat its not onli 1 gerl...there's MORE DEN 1 GIRL IS INVOLVE IN DIS STUPID GAME UR PLAYING...damn u!

well i have to congratulate u cos watever u've done is realli beyond wat i can take...u've manage to break me down,into uncountable pieces...CONGRATULATION!ur game was a good one i shud say...but trust me...i believe someday ur gonna get a taste of wat ur doing to me...i hope its worst den dis...cos i believe in retribution...its proven...i've seen it myself ...jus dun be too happy wif wat u have ryte now...dats all i can tell u.coa u'll never noe wen's ur turn to go down...

i jus hate it wen i have noting to do...cos it makes me tink of u...u have no idea jus how much im missing u ryte now do u?yes im letting my ego to take over me...cos i guess dats the best i can do ryte now...i jus cant afford to tink bout u always...i have to throw my feelings away...its more difficult den i tot its gonna be...if there's one ting i wanna do ryte now it wud be to be wif u...realli miss those times 2gether...miss laughing to ur jokes,admiring ur smile...haiz...i jus dunno why it have to end up dis way...i realli dun understand...as much as i want to end everiting once and for all,there's jus too many tings i have to consider.there's jus too many tings dat had happened dat makes it impossible for me to give up everiting...why arent u seeing tings the way i did???well mayb dis is jus a test for me...i believe dat all dis tings will be over soon and we'll end up happy in the end...jus hope dat i'll see the rainbow at the end of dis rocky n long road...)=

Skools realli tiring and the schedule is kind of hectic too...but on the positive side i've a bunch of frens who never fail to make my day.mayb dats wat dats been keeping me going on everi day...each day is filled wif jokes and luffter...hahaha...thanks ppl...

was werking jus now and i swear i had to drag myself to werk...had a quick nap after skool bfore going to werk and my eyes can barely open.its realli exhausting but i've got no choice.oh SHIT!!!i jus remembered dat im having accounting test 2morrow...abd i havent studied for it yet...nvm...will study on my way to skool 2morrow...

finally got to see ace n farhan today in skool...was realli glad to see them...dunno why...hahahah...oh yeahh saw ah leng also...he was practically staring at me lah as i walk pass him...i swear he looks like a father of 5 alreadi wif his stomach bulging like dat...padahal last time he was fit i have to say...hahahah...it was nice seeing him after such a looooong time...

guess dats all i have for ryte now...

i've always been keeping tings to myself...u noe dat dun u...in fact u noe me very well wat im like...u noe even wen im angry i will jus keep my bloody mouth shut.like a stupid dumbass!i tink dats why ur fooling around ryte???u tink im soooo stupid and i wont noe wat ur doing behind my back...FYI...im not dat stupid ok!i noe wats going on...well why wud u lie to me???wen u can jus tell me the truth...and u noe i wont get mad at u wat...ur jus making tings worst by lying to me cos ur story realli doesnt make sense at all...and u noe wat???i've come to realise someting and it kind of hit me realli hard in the face...i realise dat i've never meant aniting to u all dis while...im jus some1 who u'll turn to wen ur lonely n bored...dats all!and bullshit to all ur promises ok...dun come and tell me u LOVE ME wen u dont....realli...i realli dun need ur sympathy...i'll get over wif it...jus leave me alone like how u used to leave me...im fine wif it...like i used to say...its expected if one day ur leaving me again...