well yes i finally changed my blog skin...its like very2 simple to the max...jus the way i want it to be...hahahah...kk...despite the fact dat exams is jus around the corner,i cant help but skipping my classes...hahahah...i noe...suicidal...jus exhausted lah...dunno why...and no...im not stressed up at the fact dat exams are coming.jus a tiny winy bit worried dats all...thank god im not debarred k...hahahah...i was dead scared k.i swear...

moving on was never easy...yes i admit.cos it requires u to forget those sweet memories which ur jus reluctant to let go...but for now...im moving on pretty well i guess...so far so good...but of course...i cant help tinking bout him...no no...i dun want him back.jus dat i havent been able to stop tinking bout him yet...he'd played quite a big role in one part of my life.so its not dat easy to jus get him out from my mind...jus the tots of him makes me annoyed,pissed,angry,dissapointed and hurt.haiz...

was tinking wat are my goals in life jus now...currently im skooling...it'll be done by next yr.if possible i want to further my studies but perhaps i'll jus find a job,a stable one hopefully den i'll jus upgrade myself slowly.reason being...i have responsilities dat i have to take care of...i jus cant neglect my responsibilities and be selfish jus to fulfill wat i desire...i have my mum to take care of...she's realli counting on me.and i dun wanna dissapoint her.even though deep down i noe i have in some ways...next on the list is i wanna settle down...hahahah...dis is funny!know why?becos i told my mum i dun wanna get married.i jus wanna have kids.thru adoptions.i dun mind...but i jus cant picturing myself spending the rest of my life wif a man.reason being i dun trust men...hahahah...yes call it pathetic.i dun care...i jus dun trust them...but den...i have to.cos im required to...yes it'll be nice to settle down and have kids of my own.haiz...kk...enuff of dis daydreaming...will update soon okies...

currently in skool everiting's bout exams,exams & exams...revision here and there...pretty hectic i shud say.and i swear all of dis is draining all of my energy.still got like 4 more weeks to skool...and less den a month to exams...preparations...hmmm...ok lah...not so bad i suppose...been sleeping in the evening lately...i dunno wats making me so exhausted.and...i've been drinking redbull on a regular basis...i noe its not good for health but i jus cant help it ok.i jus need someting to give me some extra energy.heehee~i promise i'll try to cut down...

recently i got to noe about dis gerl who was my senior back in my secondary school days whom passed away...i was very shocked.it came out in the news paper...my condolesence to her family and hope dat they stay strong...Allah loves her more.though we dun realli noe each other i hope dat u'll rest in peace.amin...

met sheena few days back,and gerl i realli miss u sooooo much ok...had a long catching up session wif her...thanks for coming over baby...and thanks for listening...we shall meet up soon ok darling!love u!!!

on the brighter note,i'll be meeting nik dis sunday.hopefully he dont cancel it.oh yes i realli do miss him so much:)there's so many tings dat needs to be clarified...we'll jus see wat happens aite...will update again soon...

walau ada yg lain tlah hadir hatimu yg terpilih~

i reached my point of exhaustion wen i jus broke down into tears and cried realli hard.its been so long since i cried like dat.it was so frusterating.i asked u a simple question,its a YES or NO question and u cant even answer my question.or shud i say u REFUSED to answer my question reason being dat my question is FREAKING u out.which part of my question freaked u out???well u noe wat...if u hadnt kept me in the dark for all dis while,i wudnt have to ask u dis question.i jus wanna noe were there/is there someone else in ur heart?dats all...what is it dat is freaking u out???im sick and tired of playing dis game u noe...so why wont u jus cooperate wif me and let us end dis game?ur biggest problem is u like to run away from problems.tinking dat by doing so dis problems will dissapear without u having to face it.but ur wrong...the problem onli gets BIGGER AND MORE COMPLICATED each time u run away from it.stop living in denial and start living in reality baby...well mayb u jus dun realise jus how much i care and jus how much i love u...u dunno how much i realli wanted tings to werk out between us.im not asking for a fairy tale.but i dun want dis either...i jus dun wanna give up on dis jus yet.im willing to wait...but there ought to be a stop to dis waiting ryte...i jus need u to tell me the truth about everiting...onli dat...im prepared to let u go...but first i need u to be honest...