See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is eating for ya
I can't stop crying
I don't know how
I allow you to treat me this way and still i stay

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya wanna do me wrong
See when I'm home, I'm all alone
And you are always gone
And boy, you know I really love you
I can't deny
I can't see how you could bring me to so many tears
after all these years

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Oohhhhh
I trusted you, I trusted you
So sad, so sad
what love will make you do
all the things that we accept
be the things that we regret
too all of my ladies (ladies) feel me
c'mon sing wit me

See, when I get the strength to leave
You always tell me that you need me
And I'm weak cause I believe you
And I'm mad because I love you
So I stop and think that maybe
You can learn to appreciate me
Then it all remains the same that
You ain't never gonna change
(never gonna change, never gonna change)

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
Butm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby why you hurt me leave me and desert me
Boy I gave you all my heart
And all you do is tear it up
Looking out my window
Knowing that I should go
Even when I pack my bags
This something always hold me back

holidays had started...well its the most boring holidays i've ever had in my life i shud say...im slacking at home most of the time...i dun werk dat much cos their cutting part timer hours...oh well...had percussion training on monday n friday for the upcoming performance which is gonna be on dis coming monday...had a seminar on thursaday which is super boring...i dun gain any knowledge out if it...

oh ya...i finalli met him on tuesday...he fetched me after werk which realli surprise me...i tot he wasnt gonna come...so yeahh...went to east coast wif him...sat in his car...he was trying to talk tings out but i was being ignorant...i dont believe in giving chances animore...he had gone beyond my limits and i couldnt forgive him...apologising alone is not enuff...to tink dat i'll fall for his words again...oh well...dream on...i knew he's lying...even up to dat very moment...well...i did ask him for the truth...and he finalli confessed dat he's still wif fizah...GREAT!well dats all dat i need to noe...

ryte now im trying to move on...im picking myself up trying not to breakdown...I CAN DO IT! ITS MIND OVER BODY...i jus need to tell myself dat i dun need such idiots in my life to be happy...i can be happy on my own...im trying to get myself busywif tings like watching movies online and stuff...jus to distract myself....

oh dear...i have LLA assignments to finish and i've not even started....damn it....

i dont understand where u have the courage to even ask me to give u another chance after all the lie u've told me.its so easy for u to apologise cos ur not going thru dis shit ur giving me...do even have any idea how i feel wen i noe u li to me bout dat guy???and do u noe how hurt i am wen i found out bout u and fizah...u went on lying to me until i finally found out the truth...u used me to keep u company bcos fizah is in australia...and wen fizah come back ur gonna leave me the way u did last time.and u even dare to tell me dat u've left fizah and wants to be wif me???wat do u take me for?do u tink dat im just born yesterday...and stop defending urself by bringging up the story bout dat guy whom i barely knew...for all i noe he have noting to do wif us and its jus another lie u've created.

JUST FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE WILL YOU?

HAPPY B'DAE TO ME!!!

first and foremmost i wud like to wish MR HAIQAL a very happy b'dae...hahahaha...dah legal seh...

2ndly i wud like to wish myself a happy belated burfday...basically i celebrate it wif my dear ones...sheena n yaya...i cant thank enuff them enuff...and not forgetting to those who wished me...thanks a lot ppl...i realli realli appreciate all of it especially to those who wished me at 12 o clock...i realli dun expect it...although it wasnt the most happiest one but it sure is memorable...

yaya thanks for the cake girl...hahaha...and thanks for keeping me company the whole day...i guess saying vthank you alone is not enuff to express how much touched i am by the cake...and to sheena...thanks knn for the bottle...hahaha...and also for the cake...its super yummy lah...

and to the person who had to ruin my b'dae thanks eh for everiting...it was realli a pleasure to noe

and im soooo looking forward to meeting someone to have a belated celebration...hopefully it will turn out to be a good one...hehehehe....

I love u MUM!

I noe im not the best daughter in the world.

I noe i've caused u soooo much trouble and u've gone thru a lot raising me up to wat i am now...

U may not be the most perfect person in this world but in my eyes ur perfect in every single way...

THANK YOU for ur never ending love towards me and for always being there for me...

well, the gud ting is i've been indulging myself wif assignments... been very busy lately finishing up my assingments, going out and do some catching-up sessions wif a couple of frens...im enjoying myself cos its realli nice seeing some old frens...and yeahh did some shopping too...dats wat i realli2 need to do...hahahah...

but i cant possibly be at task 24/7 ryte...and dats wat i realli hate...i jus wish i have someting to do all the time...cos the moment im alone i'll be tinking of the bad tings in life dat has been happening to me...tings dat i've been avoiding to be exact...been pretending to be alryte wen ppl noe im not...well u ppl noe dat i realli have to keep my spirits high ryte now...i realli cant afford to feel low cos i'll definitely breakdown...

dats jus wat i dun wan...i prefer being like dis...pretending.i dun wanna go thru dat hell animore...i hope u ppl can realli help me to bring my spirits high aite...cos u ppl are realli good at doing dat...u ppl never fails to make my day and make me smile even at the very worst day...

jus 2 more wks bfore hols...and seriously im lookin forward to it...its jus the break i realli2 need ryte now...