Saturday, August 30, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
was surfing thru the net den i came across dis baby photo...adorable arent they???sometimes i imagined myself having my own babies...settled down happily...den again at times wen i tink again...i can be happy even if im not married...i can have my own children without getting married thru adoption dat is.cos wen i tink again...i dun realli need a man in my life.i'll be jus fine having my mum and my children wif me...
i saw it wif my own eyes how my mum brought me n my bro up as a single parent.she worked two jobs to bring us up...even though she remarried but my step dad wasnt contributing much.see...wats the point of having man in ur life if ur carrying their responsibilities on ur shoulders.women now can do wat men can do.i saw wif my own eyes how in some families the wives are the bread winner n the husbands are lazing around at home.
u get wat im trying to say.so wats the point of getting married den???it is encouraged for men n women to get married to avoid 'maksiat'.but it is also said dat the men have be fully prepared to carry responsibilities which includes providing the basic necessities for his families.the men shud also be well knowledged in terms of religious knowledge sa dat he can guide his family to the rught path...
well i dunno...wats written here are the tings i see in my own perspectives.other ppl might have their own way of seeing dis whole ting.there's no right or wrong though...its very subjective and also a sensitive issue.
till then...
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
im jus missing u soooo badly dat its realli starting to hurt.
memories of the happy days kept flashing back on my mind.
it made me smiled for a while.
den came all the lies and cheatings.
i stopped smiling den i cried.
dats wen my life turned around.
u left me counting the steps dat u take.
im all alone and ur there wif someone else.
im tried keeping myself 2gether
but everiting's starting to fall apart.
i noe dat i shud've moved on but it jus aint dat easy.
im picking up all the shattered pieces dats left all by myself.
its difficult i noe.
but i have to overcome dis obstacles somehow
and hope one day i'll learn to love some new.
jus someting i wrote jus now.mayb it can turn out to be a song perhaps.anibody wanna volunteer to create a melody for it???hahaha...jus joking...till then...
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Thursday, August 7, 2008
"hey gd morning,i tink we shud realli go on our separate ways n stop contacting each other since we couldnt startaniting.i wish u success in ur future n hope u do pray for my success too.im sorry dat all dis is too sudden for u but i've a careful tinkingn i tink it's best for us.pls do take care."
i accepted wat was written in the msg bravely.i didnt break down into tears.but i couldnt avoid the fact dat i wasnt good at losing people.especialli those whom i regarded as my pillar of strength.he was one of them.it took me quite a while before it could actualli bring me to the lowest point in my life.
seems dat the people i love leaves me one by one...it feels so demoralising and it makes me tink wat have i done dat i deserve to go thru all dis hell.u have no idea how hard i tried to prove to people dat im strong wen actualli im in such a vulnerable state.and wenever i tried making my way back to the top there's always someting dat keps pushing me back to the bottom.
i wanna run away.i wanna give up in everiting.i wanna be somewhere where there's no one who'll hurt me.i dun wanna struggle like dis animore.i dun wanna care about aniting but myself.i wanna go somewhere where all i have to tink about is me and no one else.