for dis post...i dun wanna babble bout my life...but i wanna write bout a gerl who's very dear to me...she's a gerl who've always been there for me regardless of where she is...she's someone i'll trust my life wif...

back den wen we're still in the same skool...we used to be always 2gether...walk to skool 2gether,eat lunch,walk home 2gether...we do almost everiting 2gether...always plan the most stupidest tings 2gether...ouh...how i miss those days...but ryte now...although we r no longer in the same skool,we always make time to meet each other to catch up on each other's life...

wat makes me wanna write bout her is how she's always been by my side no matter wat im going thru in life...she always offer her shoulder for me to cry on.oh dear...she's like a godsend...never wud i wan to lose a fren like her...cos she's hard to find...trust me...and the gerl im writing about is sheena...thanks for everiting darling...

went to bazaar geylang for a few times alreadi...and i shud say its pretty boring actualli...there's noting much to look out for...noting new...onli the usual stuff... and i've been buying dresses from the bazaar...hahaha...my mum is so gonna kill me...but at least its cheap...10 bucks onli...lol...so far i've bought 3 dresses and 1 purple jeans:)

life's been okay i guess...better den the weeks before at least...been going out and lazing around at home...and yeahh jus found out dat didi has been dumped by the gf.and i tink dats the reason why he's been trying to contact me i guess...hmmm...i shall plan out a script on wat i shall say to him wen im finalli readi to talk to him...but den for now i shall jus ignore him lah...u see...wat goes around comes around...now he get a taste of wat he'd been putting me thru...i noe i may sound rude lah but honestly i kind of happy to see him being ditched by the girl he loved.

im due to be werking on thurs,sat n sun...friday is supposed to be iftar wif hairi n his frens but im still considering wether or not i'll join them...we'll see how den...

SELFISH

I only thought of you and me and never anything else

The time we spent together kept me sane, you helped me to be myself

What I didn't realize is that the distance was breaking your heart

Even under you're best disguise, but it was tearing you apart, baby.

It was...

Selfish, of me to give you my love and tell you that we would never be undone.

Selfish, to want you here everyday, though we were much too far away.

Selfish, to think there was nothing wrong, with me helplessy hanging on to you

Selfish, my heart was stuck in denial, there were too many miles between us

Didn't wanna hurtcha baby, never meant to hurtcha baby(Didn't wanna hurtchu baby)

Didn't wanna hurtcha baby, never meant to hurtcha baby

Relying on the telephone I hear you say goodnite

Was probably not the best way to keep the commitment alive

After all the fantasies, I couldn't see past, what could of been oo

You were a part of me, but unhappy to be, could'nthandle it

'Cause it was...

Selfish, of me to give you my love and tell you that we would never be undone.

Selfish, to want you here everyday, even though we were much to far away.

Selfish, to think there was nothing wrong, with me helplessy hanging on to you

Selfish, my heart was stuck in denial, there were too many miles between us

Tell me, how can it be that I loved you with all my heart but I was heartless,

I was oblivious to something that was right in front of me,

oh Lord,Take this misery away, away.

It was...

Selfish, of me to give you my love and tell you that we would never be undone.

Selfish, to want you here everyday, even though we were much to far away.

Selfish, to think there was nothing wrong, with me helplessy hanging on to you

Selfish, my heart was stuck in denial, there were too many miles between us

Didn't wanna hurtcha baby, never meant to hurtcha baby(Never meant to hurt you baby)

Didn't wanna hurtcha baby, never meant to hurtcha baby

I Stay In Love Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it Make up break up can't take this madness

We don't even really know why all I know is baby

I Try and try so hard to keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point then I highly doubt you ever will

I really need you to give me that unconditional love I used to feel

It's a mistake if we just erase it From our hearts and minds

I know We said let it go but I kept on hangin' on

Inside I know it's over you're really gone

It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do

Baby I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around

And I try to front like 'Oh well' each time you let me down

See I can't get over you now, no matter what I do

Baby baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep it hurts down to my soul

My friends tell me I ain't the same no more

We still need each other

When we stumble and fall how we gon' act like what we had Ain't nothing at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is ride shotgun next to you

With the top down like we used to

Hit the block proud in the SU

We both know our heart is breakin'

Can we learn from our mistakes I can't last one moment alone,

although I know We said let go but I kept on hangin' on

Inside I know it's over you're really gone

It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do

Baby baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around

And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down

See I can't get over you now no matter what I do

Baby baby, I stay in love with you

We said let go but I kept on hangin' on

Inside I know it's over you're really gone

It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do

Baby baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around

And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down

See I can't get over you now no matter what I do

Baby baby, I stay in love with you

We said let go but I kept on hangin' on

Inside I know it's over you're really gone

It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do

Baby baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around

And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down

See I can't get over you now no matter what I do

Baby baby, I stay in love with you

nobody has ever said dat kind of tings to me.and u have to say such tings at me!ur such a motherfucker u noe dat???wat rights do u have to say such tings to me???i didnt even spit any vulgarities on u in the first place...omg!!!ur sooo uncivilised.u go around telling people all the bad tings bout me n make people tink dat ur such a perfect person n im like the one who dunno how to appreciate.oh god!ur such a disgrace u noe dat.

well u noe wat???i realli tink u shud grow up...dun be such a baby and ask ppl to solve ur problems...ur acting like a 12 yr old u noe dat...its sooo embarrasing lah...and u dun even realised dat...and next time u seek help from others pls do appreciate wat they have done for u and not blame them if tings dun go ur way!i realli dunno wats going on wif ur mind sia...ur sooooo childish lah..telling the whole world bout ur story and putting all the blame on me and expect sympathy from ppl...ur soooo fcuking getting on my nerves lah...

im like sick for almost 5 days now and its realli draining my energy out.i lost my voice,the fever is going up n down,blocked nose n dry cough.omg...and im still fasting...its alreadi the 4th day...alhamdulillah...and i hope i can continue on like dis.

didnt attend skool today cos i jus cant bring myself out from bed.and i have to go for an interview at 2+ later.omg...my mum told me i dat i realli need to see a doctor or else i wont recover.i realli dunno wether i shud or not.we'll see how later...

talked to dyna yesterday and i was holding back my tears after wat she told me wat u told her.i cant believe u'd tink dat far.i dunno how u cud have dat tots of me.im sooo dissapointed n im realli upset.i tot u'll understand wen i told u the truth.but i was wrong.u jus pretend to understand.i shudnt have told u aniting.like seriously...now.the more i felt dat dis is jus aint werking out.i jus dunno lah.i realli dunno.

the starting of dis wk wasnt realli good for me.it is soooo sucky.small arguements made big.and to make tings worst the involvement of some people whom i tink isnt necessary wen the matter can actualli be resolved on our own.ok mayb its my fault for letting it drag but den i wasnt the one who started dis.and i was tinking why the hell shud i give in if it wasnt my fault ryte???...i realli dun understand why is there a need to tell anione bout dis and to make tings worst let the person solve dis matter.its realli ridiculous n embarassing.OMG!

well on the happy side...my current grade for OFA is B.yay!im soooo happy lah.and jus now was like the last test for OFA.sooo...i tink the worst i can get is like a C which is not dat bad i guess...i still havent studied for my exams which is gonna get me into big trouble.i realli have to start studying sia...haiz...jus a few more days amelia and u can enjoy ur holidays.am realli looking forward to holidays.im gonna find a new job dat pays more so i can save money for my holidays...

fasting month has started and i've some gathering to attend to.each gathering is like jus a few days from each other.im like gonna be so broke once i cleared all of it...haiz...there's the BV gathering,guardian colleagues,dynah n frens,skool mates and not forgetting wif the ONE.oh god...haiz...but at least im realli looking forward to it cos i realli miss my frens lah...especialli the BV frens.ok...till den...