i love going to skool.haha!!!skool is like very fun lor nowadays.everiday also laugh.thanks to my 2 best buddies.SHIMA & AYU.both of u never fail to make my day everiday!i love the both of u ok...hmmm...monday got ACCOUNTING CA.im like so scared lor.i wanna score gd grades for dis paper.i'm aiming for A but i noe i'll get at least B.better den C ryte...i've gotten B for my costing...i'm rather happy wif my results but im capable of better results.my B'DAE IS COMING!!!hahah...on one side im excited and on the other side im not...we'll jus see wat happens...im contented wif wat i have ryte now.im so lucky dat there's so many people who care about me.i realli thank those people.i love u all too ok.

all dat has been happening makes me afraid of r'ship.i realised its kind of chasing after me and i keep running away from it.haha.im realli scared of it now and im not joking.u'll see my expression change once u mention about feelings.dun talk about love and all lah!i dun want r'ship.i jus wanna make more frens...lots and lots of them.dun come n complicate my life can???

my leg's injured.my knee to be exact.the muscle at the knee locked den i fell down during S&W.so pain like fuck.i was crying the whole day in my room becos the pain was soooo unbearable.and its difficult to sleep.yes i can walk.but it's gonna be painful.its jus getting worst.jus pray dat noting tear or any of dat sort ok...

yes i miss u.i missed waking up next to u...i miss ur laughter.

i miss everi single ting about u...

there's so many tings on my wishlist...hahah...

but there's only 1 thing dat i noe i wont get...well lets not talk about dat.

i jus need to stop hoping animore...hoping is for helpless people...

im not helpless...im a strong girl....yes i am.mum said so...

its funny how she can noe so much even without me telling her.

skool's doing good.i dun seems to have any problems so far...

which is a good sign for me...i jus need to keep encouraging myself to go to skool.

haha...ok dis post is soooooooooo pathetic i noe.

I SOOOOOOOO LOVE DIS SONG!

k i dunno why but i realli like dis song...

yes i've said dat i alreadi hate u.i still do.dat will not change.
its jus dat...bout how i wasted 1 yr and few months jus like dat.
i cud have been wif sumone better perhaps.i did meet the better ones.
much much better...

but i jus cant deny the fact dat i miss those times.yes i still do.
especialli those on a few occasions where i woke up in the morning next to u.
laughing to ur jokes,watching tv 2gether,have dinner 2gether...
oh well...its jus sumtings i cudnt bear to forget and let go.
"there's jus too much dat time CANNOT erase"
i'll keep those memories in one special corner in my heart.

oh yes the weather IS HORRIBLE!!!
its so freaking humid.i perspire a lot sia while walking to skool.
and i hate the sticky feeling u see...
oh yes skool wasnt dat bad after all.i kind of like going to skool.
the only ting to keep me busy.

went out last friday and i tink i had a little too much of the alcohol.
my head was alreadi very heavy but i continued drinking.
BUT i wasnt drunk.jus dat i drink slightly over my limit.
all i wanted was jus to drown my sorrows for a while.
and i tink the excess alcohol had caused my stomach some disorder.
i vomitted a couple of times and i feel VERY SICK.
i hate dat feeling.ok i LEARN MY LESSON.

dearest nik,

thanks for everiting.i realli treasure all the moments i spent wif u.

all the luffter,jokes,love,arguements even the hurt u've caused me i realli appreciate it.

i'm grateful to noe u cos u've taught so many tings dat i wont learn from anione else.

u taught me how not to trust other people so easily,taught me dat not all love is true and forever,

taught me how to endure so much pain and lastly u taught me how to let go of someone whom u realli loved.

i tink u noe how much i realli loved u.i've never loved a guy so much like i love u.

i've sacrificed like i've never sacrificed before becos of u.

i also discover my strength thru u.ur such a wonderful person.i cant deny dat fact.

i finally got to noe dat the reason our r'ship didnt work out isnt becos of me.

its not becos i aint good enuff for u.but the problem lies in u.

i discovered dat i wasnt the only one going thru dis shit.

u treated ur other lovers the same.in fact my assumptions was right after all.

u did cheat on me.im not angry wif those girls.im angry wif u.

i jus wanna remind u again dat wat goes around comes around.

and sumday wen u finally met someone u realli love dat person is gonna put u thru the exact same shit dat u've made me and a few others go thru.

i've gotten enuff proofs dat i've been looking for.enuff to make me hate u so much.im happy dat i can finally move on.mayb i cant go back to where i used to come from.but i'll be stronger and wiser den wat i used to be.yes im deeply hurt but im sumhow contented wif wat i have now.i have my family who is always by my side.i have my studies to look forward to.im gonna get a new job soon.and i have my friends who's always there to cheer me up and keep me company.wat more can i ask for.

i dun need ur love or any man's love to be happy cos i noe people around me can love me better...

this shall be my last farewell to u.i'll always pray for ur success and hope u'll be happy wif whoever ur wif now.

i jus hope i wont ever have to see u again in future.

thank you for everiting...

skool's started...time table so far ok lah hor...
out of 5 days,3 of the days i finish skool early...

modules wise...all 3 modules gt LECTURE!!!

like shit lor...costing n accounting both gt 2 lecture in 1 wk...

i so hate lecture!its so difficult to concentrate bcos the lecturer

is so boring...make me wanna ZzZzZzZ...

well noting much changed lah...everiting's pretty much the same...
currently jobless and looking for a new job...
rotting at home most of the time...

i become gd gerl alreadi hor...never go out at nite during skool days...

and i tink my insomnia is finally cured...hahhahaha...

i miss my frens...ESPECIALLY sheena..

so many weird tings happen yesterday and i almost cried...
i shall not say wat happen...but im scared to death lah...

he look so kental wif specs!!!LOL...

OMG!!!

my fav!~