i have to start attending my 8 am class more regularly...i have to stop being lazy...OMG!and i have to sleep early!!!aniwae...skool wise...hmmm...so far so good i guess.except for the part dat i've not been attending IAC regularly and the fact dat there's so many tings i have to catch up wif...IAC CA2 is coming soon...im sooooo DOOMED!LLA presentation is due after chinese new yr...haiz.

on the other hand,situation at work worsen.sunita is getting on my nerves lately...she's been asking wether or not im still interested in working there.WTF!!!i mean if im not interested den i wud have quit isnt it?i mean i dun like the way she asked me dat question.and it like she gets hurt easily.jus bcos i informed my colleague dat im on mc instead of informing her.she's being selfish and so unconsiderate towards others...why the hell would others wanna spare a thought for her ryte...JUS ONE MORE TIME IF SHE DARE TO PROVOKE ME I SWEAR IM GONNA QUIT AND I MAKE SURE SHE'LL REGRET IT!

i've been locking myself up at home.not going aniwhere.not becos i wanted to.im forcing myself to stay at home.basically becos skool alreadi started.i dun enjoy locking myself up u see.in fact i feel mentalli tortured.its like home is jus the last place i wanna be.i jus wanna go out.even if it means jus sitting at the void deck.i dun mind.no there's no war going on at home.everiting's fine.the problem is wif me.im fighting a war against my feelings.its been so difficult to control my emotions.i jus broke down into tears wen im alone.i miss u so much.if only u knew.i love u more den i ever tot i would.and it jus hurts even more to see u putting up wif ur ego.ur actions and ur words...i noe its not u.its ur fucking ego.wats the fucking point u apologised for hurting me too much???tell me?and why do u have to back off?why???why apologised and hurt again?i've been keeping everi single tings to myself for almost 1 yr now.my anger,my love,my jealousy,my sorrows...EVERITING!and u dont even seems to care!i've never wanted someting so badly the way i wanted u...someone said i deserve better...but it seems dat the better ones doesnt seems to come...